6 am

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At 6:00 a.m.

I'm still awake

Thinking about my life

How can I live a life that doesn't resemble me?


There are many around me, but I'm alone

Quiet but noisy

I'm not weak

I'm just lost


I feel a lot

A broken heart

A busy mind

A body without a soul, that's me


The rose is no longer blooming

There's no happiness in my eyes

Everything has become heavy

When I brush my teeth, when I watch TV


I feel like I don't want to do anything

I want to stay lying down

Whether I'm asleep or awake

Nothing matters to me anymore

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